MOLLY Jan 1, 1992 to Sept 15, 2007Wow, I can't believe it's been a year already since we lost our little Molly. Last year I remember saying "things couldn't get worse" and then they did... the day she died. She was actually 15 years old and I knew it was inevitable, I had been seeing her get thinner, greyer, pickier, quieter, her eyes more cloudy, sleeping a lot more. But I was NOT ready to let her go...we never are though.
I would always say she was my first born. We babied her so much...taking her to grandpa's to be babysat while we went out, because we had been at work all day and didn't want her left alone too long. She was our child before we had children.
I remember how when I would come in the door I would yell, "mommy's home" and she'd come tearing through the house to greet me. I'd pick her up and she'd snuggle in my neck and lick me and get so excited.
She was not a kid dog though. She loved us, but she didn't love the kids as they came along. It wasn't until she started losing her sight that the kids could pick her up and snuggle her. She wasn't friendly to strangers either. But you love them anyway. She was a part of our lives for a very long time she actually slept with us every night.
I'll never forget the last few days, it was Thursday and she stopped eating and drinking, I panicked and kept trying to coax her to eat. I went to the store and bought all kinds of dog food hoping she'd find one that was appetizing so she'd eat. Friday was the same and early on Saturday I finally realized that it was ending and I'd have to take her to the vet on Monday. That day (Sat) we needed to shop for some things and were going to be gone for a few hours. At the last minute we decided to run to Ross which is close by and found what we were looking for so we were only gone for a very short time. When we got home I was sitting near her and felt an urgency to pick her up. I took her in the bathroom and was trying to coax her to drink something, pleading with her not to die on me and then I felt her take a big breath and nothing. I yelled for Shawn and we cried together, he took her and wrapped her in a blanket and put her in a box. We told the kids, we cried, we had a little viewing, we cried, we burried her, we cried. It was the worst day! I am so glad that at least I was there, if we had gone with our original plan we wouldn't have been around. I am grateful that it happened naturally and I didn't have to have the vet do it, that would have been harder for ME. We haven't adopted a new puppy yet, we'll be ready soon I think. Until then, we love you Molly and miss everything about you!
4 comments:
Dogs are a family member. I think that was a great thing to blog about.
So sad! I didn't know she'd died - so sorry! We have had to bury 2 since we've moved here and it is heartbreaking! they truly are a member of the family-
What a cute picture. Pets are part of a family they always give you the love that you need. :)
I am so sorry for your loss. It is a beautiful blog and only people who know the love of a pet can really understand. Growing up, I wasn't allowed to have a pet because I was raised in a sterile environment. When my kids were young, my Mom gifted them with a lab mixed dog and we all fell in love with him and saw him as a member of the family. He was six months old when we got him and six years later he was stolen or killed. I don't believe any one of us will ever truly get over losing him or not knowing what happened to him. We thought we could never go through a loss like that again, but we have opened our hearts and home to a geriatric miniature poodle and gave her four happy comfortable years. It was hard to let her go when the time came, but even harder to watch her suffer. Some years later I asked for a little puppy for my 40th birthday and found Roxy our Jack Russell Terrier. Two years ago we bought my son a Pug he named Emo. It drives my family of origin crazy that we all (me, hubby, and grown sons) treat them as if they are our kids. Reading your post made me realize how much joy they bring into our lives and how much we miss them when they are gone.
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